i gots me some yellow shoes :)

k, that last post was far too embarrassing. I promise I will never, ever, ever post another blog while I’m suffering an emo moment. Promise! Unless it’s relevant, of course.

Ok, holy week is this week. Thankfully, holy week this year happens to coincide with high school spring break. I still have college, but it’s great to be away from high school so that I can actually attempt to make some spiritual progress. This lent has proven most difficult for me. I think it may be because I have a little more freedom this year. Obviously, I’m loving my independence, but to be honest, it has been difficult when it comes to my spiritual life, especially fasting. I mean, I don’t have mom holding my hand or breathing down my neck. I do think that this will be good in the long run. I should get used to my independence so that when I am truly independent I don’t go crazy and lose everything.


On another note, I can’t wait for pascha this year. Although it’s always a joyful time of year, it will be marvelous to here the service in English and with music that I’ve heard my entire life. Being an adopted greek has many positive aspects, and honestly I love it, but how am I supposed to grow spiritually if I can’t understand or pray along with the priest. It’s only logical, but not everyone sees it as the converts see it. I mean, I’ve always referred to the holy day as “pascha” which is the greek word for “Passover”. So, in a greek church, what do they call it? They don’t use the greek word that every convert uses. They refer to it as “easter”. No, this day is so much more wonderful. It cannot and should not be called the same thing as a pagan holiday. When I think of easter I think of rabbits and eggs. it’s just not as wonderful as pascha. Anyway, enough with the rant.


My happiest moment this week was purchasing my bright yellow sandals. Every time I look at them I smile. They make me happy! Of course, anything yellow tends to give me that sunshiny feeling. Also, they will clash beautifully with my blue pascha dress :P I admit…my outfits the true reason of why I am so excited about pascha. Superficial? Yes. Vain? Yes. Totally me? Of course! How could I ever stray away from vanity and superficiality, my two strongest character traits?


So, despite the gloomy countenance of the outdoors, the pile of homework that simply sits and stares, and even despite the looming school week, I can honestly say that I cam both happy and content. Yes, those two feelings have made a rare appearance, and I’m thankful.